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At 206 pounds this morning, I have shed 14 pounds in a little over a month (which shows how imperfect my weight had been) and am well on my way to the 185 pounds my body and I at this moment agree is perfection for both of us.
So this is a very good day, and it's only 6:22 a.m.
Years ago, in a visualization exercise, I imagined my perfect day. In that perfect day, I was living in a sun-filled house by the sea on the Italian Riviera. I woke early, did a little writing, then had breakfast with coffee, and read the newspapers. (Ah--how long ago that was!)
In mid-morning, I strolled out through the village to the market and bought some fresh things for the day's meals, and came home.
At noon, friends stopped by for lunch, small talk, big talk, sharing.
In the afternoon I did a little more writing. I had to answer an invitation from the Italian government to come to Rome to accept an award, complete with a small tasteful medal, for my contributions to the preservation of culture in Italy: I had discovered a method of protecting statues and historic stone work like cathedrals and towers from the effects of acid rain. (Hey, I said it was a perfect day, and I get to choose what happens in it. So, a little adulation, it goes a long way.)
Then time for a nap, and anticipating the arrival of family--my daughter and son, my sister, my mother, still alive at that time, and their families, for cocktails, reading some poetry, listening to music played for us alone, and a lovely dinner.
Well, yesterday, my actual perfect day had a slightly different shape and size. Up in the morning, seeing my wife off to her work of preparing a client's house for sale, taking a small breakfast of hot cereal and a papaya, and then talking with my friend Urban about the location of a new soaking bathtub upstairs in the villa here in Kahalu'u, Hawaii.
The location, the Kaneohe Bay Riviera.
Later, when I called my sister in California, I told her how well the day was going. "First of all," I said, "I am on my way to Home Depot."
We both laughed.
"Depot" has become a second home of sorts for each of us as I have worked on the villa, and she has renovated her home in California.
After buying lumber for a new window wall, I returned and Urban and I conferred on the installation of new kitchen cabinets.
Later, my wife and I took an old friend to the airport for her flight to Vancouver, and went to see an Argentinian film about love and murder.
But at the very center of the entire day was just this: sliced tomatoes and slices of a soft cheese, bathed in a lime-flavored extra virgin olive oil and balsamic vinegar (aceto balsamico as we say here in Italy and in Kahalu'u). Then a small sandwich of sliced chicken on thin pieces of a bread into which bits of Calamata olives were baked. On the bread, a dab of mayonnaise, a dollop of mustard, and over all, fresh ground pepper.
All of this prepared by me from fresh ingredients, for myself and my friend Urban. We might have had a small glass of wine, but there were power tools awaiting us, so we confined ourselves to fresh cool water from the tap, water from the vast artesian lens of fresh water deep below Oahu that has trickled down through the lava rock mountains to wait hundreds of years for us to summon it back to the surface.
It may not get any better than this--and so I will choose to regard each moment as the best available to me.
The lunch was part of the new life style of seeking my perfect weight as part of my perfect days to come.
Fresh tomatoes. Not canned, because of the salt packed into the can. Not in a sauce, because of the 9 grams of sugar in a can of Del Monte Spaghetti sauce, enough sugar (from corn syrup) to constitute fully two-thirds of the calories in the sauce.
I look at labels now, but it is all so confusing. Which fat is good, which is bad? How much sodium today? Is the sugar fructose?
The great food manufacturers of America acknowledge that they jam all sorts of fat and salt and sugar into the foods they package for sale, because those ingredients supposedly help keep the food at least looking and tasting somewhat fresh, preserved, flavorful, for a long shelf life.
But it's hard to keep up with what is good and what is bad.
And it dawned on me, appropriately at dawn today, that so many of those dietary questions can be finessed by simply choosing fresh food. It's my shelf life that is important here, not that of the food factories.
The endless harvest is rushed to my neighborhood market, Strada Sicura (which non-Italian speakers may recognize as "Safeway.")
And so even now, the "diet" and "weight loss program" have become, instead, good food and allowing my body to find its perfect weight.
But the weight, and so many other health issues, will go where they want and need to go not because of a numerical target, but because of living a good life. Not THE good life, mind you, because so often it is not the good life, but just a good life.
Good enough to be perfect, however imperfect it may be.